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Mar. 18th, 2014 @ 07:36 pm < no subject found >
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"No, you should look at her face. Look into her eyes. Far more interesting. And that way, you may even be lucky enough to catch a glimpse of her soul."
Aug. 20th, 2013 @ 09:13 pm Useless Fiction
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It was torn asunder. Literally and figuratively. Blowing through the wind, the fragments of the Book caught pieces of the fading twilight.

The majestic structure that it stood for also scattered, only held up by ideals etched in silicon and steel, suckling energy from the dying light. Trapped by ideas... held up by ideas. Structureless only possible through the structure it rejected.

But, after all, what did the Book truly say, anyway? Was it not just a feeble justification for its own existence? Yet another kind of lifeform, endlessly xeroxed by life rising from the light. The fading light...
Aug. 19th, 2013 @ 12:05 am < no subject found >
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Hmm. It seems like most of the more prominent modern auxlangers (people who tried to create auxiliary/replacement languages) were pretty out there. They tend to be extreme idealists who think that their languages are great solutions to a problem facing humanity.

Then, they tend to exert considerable control over them to the point of hostility, inevitably resulting in a hostile split or splintering of the language community.
May. 12th, 2013 @ 06:44 pm On Nice-Guyism
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There has been a lot of talk about “nice-guy” syndrome, though perhaps not so much lately. In any case, while the phenomenon is certainly real and a real problem, I find much of the discussion of it far too harsh and angry to be very productive for the people who most need to hear it, namely, the men who act “nice,” especially since I blame society for failing to educate men about relationships more than I want to blame those men who behave in this way for trying to fulfill their natural desires. There's no mercy for these poor men! They are faced with the strongest human desire of all, and to bash and belittle and accuse them of cruelty to women (who they have probably been taught to hold up on a pedastle, which is happens to be one of the sources of the “nice guy” problem) might be one of the most hurtful things someone could do to them. But I don't blame people who attack “nice guys” any more than I blame “nice guys” for their problems. They are also responding based on cultural conditioning about how you should treat men. So, the following essay is how I would try to teach someone to deal with feeling attracted to someone to prevent “nice guy” syndrome:

If you find someone attractive, it's natural to want to be nice to them. It's also natural to want them to be attracted to you, too. Unfortunately, the combination of these two desires can lead people down some very dark and destructive paths, paths that end in loneliness, hurt, anger, and the total destruction of any chances of a meaningful romantic relationship.
Two of the major missteps are being overly nice and being manipulative, though they are deeply connected.

By being “overly nice,” I mean having an attitude of servitude. This is both demeaning and no basis for a relationship.
To behave as a slave toward someone, catering to every whim, just diminishes your personality. Relationships thrive in the mixture of personalities, so not only does behaving this way demean you, it also precludes a genuine relationship. Moreover, it leaves you open to the other person taking advantage of you.
Needless to say, being a simpering fool is unattractive, probably because humans innately understand that such people do not make for good partners.

The second misstep is having the motivation of trying to control or influence reciprocal feelings. If you pretend to be better or behave in unrealistic ways in order to impress someone, you're lying in an attempt to manipulate him or her into liking you. Even if you change in objectively positive ways; you're still building your character around infatuation, which is a perilous foundation.
Tuning yourself around your latest crush is not a realistic long-term strategy: You must be able to stand on your own and improve yourself on your own to be part of a relationship, because a relationship involves supporting as surely as it involves being supported.

These two missteps are related. The first attitude has some elements of the second. By being a slave, you're trying to influence the other person to like you through “niceness.” You may even be emulating some aspects of virtue, since loving service can be virtuous. But diminishing your character is a lie and therefore manipulation.
Additionally, making oneself a slave and having the motivation of making a particular person attracted to yourself both tend to objectify people. Being a slave and catering to another's every whim without complaint implies an attitude that the other person would want a slave as a partner; in other words, you invite the object of your attraction to objectify you.
Trying to manipulate someone into loving you by lying about yourself, whether by being his or her slave or by other means, does not treat the object of one's affections as a person to be related to but as something under one's control: not a person at all, but more like some sort of toy or plaything.

To avoid these mistakes, treat the other person as a human being. Accept that you're attracted, and test the waters - try to get hints as to whether he or she's attracted too. If not, it may hurt, but it's best to accept it: the alternative is to make mistakes, such as the ones above, which will even in the best case just be a waste of your time. Spend time with him or her, try to understand who she or he really is as a person.
In the end, and this is really hard to accept, one person having feelings for another is not romantic love. Romantic love only really happens when both people have feelings for each other, and it's not something you can control or should try to control. If you try to control how the other person feels, even if you are “successful” you will have failed. Failed in many ways, but most of all, failed to really love the other person.